i flew on an airplane, with wings and happy jet fuel, to victoria bc.
and now i am here, after a delicate visit with my grandparents,
the lovely Owen and Pat Hanson.
my grandpa told me that a young woman at the coffee shop he frequents is pregnant.
and after she poured his dark roast on a fateful monday morning,
she leaned over and said she found out she was having a boy.
and she was going to name him Owen, after the only Owen she knows.
How cool is that?
How cool is that?
My grandpa is wonderfully lovely and so soft and gentle and the loveliest man to name any child after...
oh that made me smile with glee.
a gleeful smile.
smile of glee.
so, in other news..... hmm...
i sometimes think that best thing for me to put
my life force into would be children.
but i dont want to be teacher. or a tutor. or a babysitter.
but... a playmate, perhaps.
someone to play and explore and imagine with.
there are enough "curriculum" programs out there...
so what about spirit/soul/imagination game time?
where the kids get to direct the time and make things their way, but we still get to explore what it means to be child.
we're so constantly focused on preparing our children for the FUTURE (click here)
and always teaching them to learn more and higher and pushing forward into adolescence and adulthood and BOOM... where did we go? how did we get here?
and no, bite your tongue, i don't think this is a bad thing at all. its quite perfect and a wonderful form of evolution we've got going here...
but what about learning or focusing time on just being a kid?
sure playing in the backyard, and making spaceships out of paper mache and playing ponies under the coolest fort of pillows and blankets ever is a wonderful way to "focus" on being a kid...
but nowadays, im afraid our children are missing out on a lot of that.
we try and try and try to get them out of the house, away from the t.v, the playstation, the fucking wii (is that actually how its spelled? my god)
But what about setting aside sometime for real playing. real imagination exploration and expanding our minds as children and what it was once like to be pure and innocent and full of 'ANYTHING IS POSSIBLE'??
I think alongside their curriculum based learning, this can amplify children into a well rounded world of expression and creativity and knowledge...
hmm... i've actually just ranted this idea out. i never really put it together this much before.. so forgive me if i'm missing some pieces as i will rework and retouch all this..
but it feels good. freakin good to get it all out.
i just sit and listen to her songs and think of lovely little lilies in your hair, lifted lightly to luscious latitudes of levitation and love... lovely love.
yes, you.
i almost hope you are reading this.
and thinking "oh jill, how lovely things are"
and yes they are.
because when i look up at a right angle to the sky, through this window, i see the moon, with its top right side fading out into nothingness.
and in the reflection of that window is me. me, without a wallet (cuz i left it in the back of a strangers car, and had to call all guitar lesson places in victoria to find "mike"... but no luck)
me, without an i.d to fly me home to home.
me.
oh, me.
but that idea of "how lovely things are" keeps me awake and alive and always affirming that this is where i want to be. this is where i choose to be.
even though i secretly think of being in his arms where its warm and totally safe.
totally safe.
i think i will now get vertical on the couch.
i would like you to write down the top 3 things you love about yourself, fold up the paper 3 times and the next time you see me, hand it over.
i love you all.
